I too have had my share of experiences with losing faith in being a White Mage, and getting depressed over seeing everyone around me pass me by. I have had my share of teleporting to Holla, so I can run down to Valkurm and help out lower lvls.
Last night was another depressing night. I was waiting in Jeuno for a party on my 42 Black Mage, when I noticed someone shouting for people interested in doing Mission 5.1...being that I was needing to do the Mission, I messaged them, and switched over to my White Mage.
We slowly got a full party of people together, and headed out to Fei'Yin. We walked, which means I had to actually cast Sneak and Invisible on myself every couple of minutes. Thankfully, I'd recently done the map quests, so I had maps for the glacier and Fei'Yin.
We got aggro a couple of times in Fei'Yin, but made it there fine. Everyone got ready, and we entered the BC. Our SMN rocked with Carby, hitting down the little Skeletons, while our DD took out the Archlich. I stood there, casting Banishga and Banishga II, helping take out more of the little Skeletons. We might not have beat the time, but we had a blast.
So we had figured we could go ahead and to 5.3 also...killing the Shadow Lord. As a lvl 48, I knew I would have trouble getting through Castle Baileys Vhazl, but I also knew I've snuck my way through Ro'Maeve. I know how to avoid aggro pretty well, and I've learned my lesson about carrying silent oils and prism powders. So I knew I wasn't going to have a problem getting through there.
One of the original party members couldn't stay, so we were going to get someone else. The other person basically said that I was too low lvl and that we were going to die. I said that was fine, and disbanded. How depressing.
At that point, I pretty much said good night to my LS and unequiped it, not wanting to talk to anyone, especially the high lvls in my LS.
I headed off to Windurst to check for a spell I needed, which they ended up not having. While running around, I noticed someone shouting for help with obtaining a Giddeus key for the Kazham airship pass quest. I offered my assistance, and headed out to Giddeus.
After about 30 minutes, we got the key, and the Warrior headed off to do what he was doing. I headed off on my own, again, this time to Selbina, to check for the scroll there. They had it, and I was happy.
Helping people is what I do. I am a White Mage. I cure, and raise, and assist when I can. I'm proud of what I have achieved, and I love being a White Mage.
Rate up. ^_^